Germination

ger•min•a•tion (noun)
to begin/commence growth and/or development; to come into existence, to begin
Origin: Latin (germinatus = to sprout/begin)

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Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaand we're back! The Vonerdculary returns for its second year after a long summer haitus! Clay and I decided that since we started this to keep in touch during school, and since we were both home for the summer months, continuing the blog would be rather redundant, seeing as we would be seeing each other all summer long.

Here we are at the beginning of yet another September, the beginning of yet another long school year, fraught with learning, exams, and more grueling work. It's time for part three, my friends!

Clay, to be honest, I was a little hesitant going into this September because of how stressful this summer has been, and I wasn't sure how I was going to fare this term with all of that weighing down on me, but in the past few days, I've just sort of said "You know what, this is ridiculous; I really just could not care less anymore." and I'm just not going to think about it anymore because it's going to cause more harm than good.

So being on Campus for orientation stuff today was rather refreshing, and I'm rather exciting to go back. Of course, I'm not looking forwards to the stress or the exams and stuff, but I'm excited to be learning again, to be exercising my brain, to be thinking about important things and issues; no more of this frivolous personal drama. I'm tired of waiting, because frankly at this point in our lives, we should all me mature young adults; I strongly believe that high school is the time of a person's life in which one should be doing their soul-searching; discovering who you are, who you've been, and who you want to be. It's the time of life when you're supposed to get to know yourself and the people around you.

It's just frustrating to know that there is one among us who did not do this in high school, and as a consequence, there are now high school-esque problems permeating our group when there really should be none at this point in our lives. Emotional immaturity at this age is intolerable, but unfortunately many people in this day in age go through their teens and enter their twenties without ever doing what they're supposed to do, and they go their entire lives with the emotion/mental maturity of a ten year old. I'm very disappointed that one of our friends has turned out to be one of these people.

Regardless, there is not much that we can do at this point, so there really is no point in my fretting over something I have very little control over, so whatever. At this point in time, I'm just going to try to be pleasant and wait and see what happens. Hopefully, the person in question takes this time to do the soul searching that should have been done several years ago, and if that happens, I will be very happy to resume where we have left off. If not, I'm just going to have to wait a bit longer.

The truth of the matter is that the events that occurred over the summer have been a gross betrayal of my trust, and if things are ever going to go back to normal, that trust needs to be earned back, and you are familiar with the extent to which my trust issues extend, so you very well know that it won't be easy. I mean, it's not like we're starting from scratch, because regardless of how I feel now, I can't deny that we've been friends for a very long time and that friendship has been a big part of my life. Because of that, I owe this friendship a second chance, in the name of our past; honestly, if it weren't for our past history, I wouldn't have given it a second chance in the first place.

Anyways, that's my little rant for today. I hope you are well out at Trinity, and that everything is going well. Good luck with your courses and commitments this term!

I can't wait to hear from you! Say Hi to B for me!
Tim.